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"There's no way around grief and loss: you can dodge all you want, but sooner or later you just have to go into it, through it, and hopefully come out the other side. The world you find there will never be the same as the world you left."
                               Johnny Cash

On Friday we learned that Olivia's heart was no longer beating. We had to wait nearly 36 hours for a hospital bed to become available for Alyssa to deliver her.  Early Sunday morning Olivia's body came into this world, her spirit already with the Lord.

On Sunday afternoon, Casey left for boot camp.  

  

Comments

[Lori]

I am so sorry to hear this...Please know that she is in a better place and Olivia's purpose was to touch your lives in a way that you cannot see as of yet. My thoughts and prayers are with your family at this time.

[christina]

I'm sorry Autumn. For you, for Alyssa and for Olivia for never getting to know the amazing women that were waiting for her. Give your daughter a hug for me will you, and tell her I'll be thiking of her!

[Cindy]

As soneone who lost a baby in utero, I know that there are no words that can make things any better for Alissa right now. My best advice to her would be to ignore all the comments and just take time to grieve. People said things to me like well think of how hard your life would have been with a baby with problems. Or, the well you can try again comments. They didn't make things easier, they made things worse. Reguardless of the situation that was a human life. A human life that was loved and wanted by many. Just tell her to ignore all of the unwanted comments, and to take time to heal, mentally and physically.

Lots of prayer for the whole family.

[Kristin]

My prayers are with you all. May God bless.

[Laney]

Oh, I am so sorry. Sending prayers your way.

[Aunt LoLo]

May God Bless you and your beautiful family right now...a good friend (who works in hospice care) taught me that the grief comes in waves. The first few waves are awful, yes, but...they lessen, over time. I know nothing helps right now - it's just a promise. The image did help me when we lost my grandmother.

[Ashlie]

Oh, I am so sorry. Words cannot even touch your pain, I know. Please know that I am praying right now for Alyssa, Casey, and your whole family.

[Lynne in NC]

Autum,
I'm sure this was a difficult post for you, but thank you for sharing your grief with us. You all are lifted in prayers from our home. May God sustain you and comfort all of you. Hugs to all.
Peace,
Lynne

[Michele C]

Oh, I'm praying for you and your family right now. All your babies dealing with something hard and sweet and rewarding and scary. I'm sure your heart doesn't know which way to go.

[Randi]

I am so sorry, Autum. My prayers are with you and the rest of your family. (((HUGS)))

[Joanna]

Oh I am just so sorry. I lost 4 babies in utero and there are just no words to explain the grief you feel. Alyssa is lucky to have you to support her at this most difficult of times. Give her a hug from all of your blogging friends:)

[Joanne Brown]

Sending love and prayers your way. Your family are in my thoughts. Joanne x

[Layna]

I am so sorry for your loss.

[Lisa Clarke]

Oh Autum, I'm so sorry. I have more I could say, but really, that just sums it up so well. So sorry.

[Tine]

I have read your blog for a while, but I am not sure I have commented before. I am so sorry for your loss. Loosing a baby must be horrible! I will pray that you and you family.

[Jennifer]

I am so, so sorry. You are all in our prayers.

[Katie]

Oh Autum, my heart is breaking for all of you. I'll continue to prayer for Alyssa and Casey, and the rest of your family.

[Jen]

I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

[Sunny]

With tears in my eyes, I am praying for your family right now. I pray that the Lord will hold you and your family in a way that only He can do.

I can't imagine. I won't pretend to understand.

I will just say that I am sorry. So sorry and I pray for you and your family.

(hug)

[Tonya Richard]

Oh Autum, my heart is breaking for you and Alyssa and the rest of your family :*( There are no words to say except I am so so sorry. I do know that one day y'all will see Olivia again in heaven and she is with Jesus now. But that doesn't really make losing her any easier.

And then Casey left the next day..... I will be praying for you.

[Jenny]

I'm so sorry for your loss.....blessings for Casey. Thank him for us all.

[Nichole]

Autum,
I have no words but know that I am praying for you and your family!

[Valerina]

Sending my sympathy, and praying for strength for you, Alyssa, and your family.

[Lisa]

Praying for you and your family today.

[Sarah S]

I'm so sorry for this loss in your family. I will keep you all in my thoughts.