You know, for someone who claims to be a private person, I sure do open myself up for the world to see sometimes don't I? In my real life there are no more than 3 people I could have shared those thoughts and feelings with but in sharing them with you, my wonderful internet friends you have wrapped your arms around me and listened as I cried. For that I am so thankful. Your comments were full of kindness, understanding, and genuine concern. If you ever wonder if your comments really matter, please know that they do. They matter so much. Today was better than yesterday and tomorrow will be better than today.
I have a tiny... and when I say tiny I'm not joking...a tiny bit of work in progress to show. I sewed a few stitches. Pressed a few seams. Did a little cutting and made some progress on a project I am excited about and eager to complete. On a normal day I would have zipped through this and started on something else that's been waiting for my attention, but today I am satisfied with even the small amount of progress made. Baby steps toward getting back into things.
I'm a little bit reluctant to share this, just because I'm being fearful and neurotic, but I would also like to share something happy since I haven't done that in a while. Meet Toby.
In a moment of emotional spontaneity, Alyssa and I went to see this little guy. You know I had to bring him home. He will not replace Madden, but he's already finding his own unique place in our family.